I had the strangest dream last night,or at least I thought is was strange until I really gave it some serious thought this morning. I dreamt that I was taking care of a little boy who was Kim's son. He was about four years old. I was taking him to a zoo, but in order to get to the zoo, I had to carry him in my arms and wade through the ocean. Once we arrived at the zoo we met his father who surprised us with a visit. The father is someone that I know but in my dream his name was Andrew Short. ( I don't know anyone with that name).
When it was time to return back home I headed back to the ocean with the little boy but I became afraid as I saw sharks two by two swimming by us. I said that we can't go into the water so we headed for a wooded cabin on the beach. In the cabin were many people. I said to the people that I have to get home but can't pass through the ocean because of the sharks. Everyone ignored me. I walked back out to the ocean. I realized then that as I continued to watch the fish sail by me that they were not sharks but porpoises or dolphins. I then woke up.
Once I could think clearly, I realized that the dolphins in my dream were so beautiful,graceful and harmless. We all know that when there are dolphins swimming in the ocean, there are no sharks nearby. I guess the message I retained from this dream is that I do not have to be worried as I am being watched over by Kelly-Anne and her dolphins.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Another Cruel Reminder
Tragedy has struck the state of Arizona today. A gunman selfishly takes the lives of eight innocent people and critically injures others among them Congresswomen Gabrielle Giffords. Why? A casual Saturday morning at a Safeway grocery store, people gather to hear the Congresswomen speak to her people. Citizens who Gilford respected and who in turn respected and looked up to her as their leader.
Sudden death, violence and again the black cloud hovering over the victims and their families. This heinous act reminds us of how precious each day is.
Earlier this week as Tony Proudfoot, former football player and teacher was laid to rest after he lost his battle with ALS, we were all reminded of his view on life. "Suck it up" were his words of wisdom to his family and friends that were reiterated at his funeral.
Each day is important as we do not know what the future holds for any of us. We wine and become frustrated over petty things. We stop talking to our friends and families because we are disturbed with their actions, beliefs or lifestyle.
For those victims murdered today, their families never got to say goodbye,never were able to tell them on their last day on earth how much they loved them. Is that what we all want? To live with the I should of's ?
Loosing Kelly-Anne suddenly, reminds me that life is precious and that going forward I am and will always be a caring and concerned mother, wife and friend to those around me.
So suck it up...get over it and embrace each day. I know I have.
Sudden death, violence and again the black cloud hovering over the victims and their families. This heinous act reminds us of how precious each day is.
Earlier this week as Tony Proudfoot, former football player and teacher was laid to rest after he lost his battle with ALS, we were all reminded of his view on life. "Suck it up" were his words of wisdom to his family and friends that were reiterated at his funeral.
Each day is important as we do not know what the future holds for any of us. We wine and become frustrated over petty things. We stop talking to our friends and families because we are disturbed with their actions, beliefs or lifestyle.
For those victims murdered today, their families never got to say goodbye,never were able to tell them on their last day on earth how much they loved them. Is that what we all want? To live with the I should of's ?
Loosing Kelly-Anne suddenly, reminds me that life is precious and that going forward I am and will always be a caring and concerned mother, wife and friend to those around me.
So suck it up...get over it and embrace each day. I know I have.
Friday, December 24, 2010
Christmas
Christmas is already here. It seems that this past year has sped by so quickly. The gifts are wrapped and under the tree. Tonight we will go to midnight mass and tomorrow will will feast with all the Christmas fare of turkey, meat pies and dessert.
I woke up this morning feeling glum.I was thinking of Kelly-Anne and feeling sad that she is not here with us. Her place setting at the table will have a candle lit and I hope that will give me some peace in knowing that her spirit is with us. I was also feeling sad for others unknown to me who have so little or have suffered hardships that we may never understand. The people in Haiti, our soldiers and the families of soldiers killed in Afghanistan and those in our very own cities who do not have homes or any money to feed and cloth their children. We have so much of everything. The abundance of food is never ending. Jules and I went out to breakfast this morning and somehow got on this conversation about those who are in difficult times. We truly do have alot to be thankful for despite our own loss.
Family and friends called today to extend their warm wishes for the holiday season. Everyone means well, but it is very hard to be in the spirit of the holidays.Kelly-Anne loved Christmas and I am thankful that we have wonderful photos of her as a child under the tree on Christmas morning. I will scan some pictures and post them. Both she and Kim would have matching pj's. Just their smiles on their faces on Christmas morning was so delightful to see.
A friend of mine told me today that his half brother found him. He never even knew that that this person existed. I look at this as a gift. A new brother comes into his life probably at a time when he needs it the most. We really do not know what life will bring us. As I have said so often, life is fragile and we must live for today. We must love those around us and cherish our fond memories of today and of Christmas past.
I wish you all not matter if you believe in the spirit of Christmas or not, a beautiful and peaceful holiday season and New Year filled with health, happiness and love.
I woke up this morning feeling glum.I was thinking of Kelly-Anne and feeling sad that she is not here with us. Her place setting at the table will have a candle lit and I hope that will give me some peace in knowing that her spirit is with us. I was also feeling sad for others unknown to me who have so little or have suffered hardships that we may never understand. The people in Haiti, our soldiers and the families of soldiers killed in Afghanistan and those in our very own cities who do not have homes or any money to feed and cloth their children. We have so much of everything. The abundance of food is never ending. Jules and I went out to breakfast this morning and somehow got on this conversation about those who are in difficult times. We truly do have alot to be thankful for despite our own loss.
Family and friends called today to extend their warm wishes for the holiday season. Everyone means well, but it is very hard to be in the spirit of the holidays.Kelly-Anne loved Christmas and I am thankful that we have wonderful photos of her as a child under the tree on Christmas morning. I will scan some pictures and post them. Both she and Kim would have matching pj's. Just their smiles on their faces on Christmas morning was so delightful to see.
A friend of mine told me today that his half brother found him. He never even knew that that this person existed. I look at this as a gift. A new brother comes into his life probably at a time when he needs it the most. We really do not know what life will bring us. As I have said so often, life is fragile and we must live for today. We must love those around us and cherish our fond memories of today and of Christmas past.
I wish you all not matter if you believe in the spirit of Christmas or not, a beautiful and peaceful holiday season and New Year filled with health, happiness and love.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Another Birthday
Today would of marked Kelly-Anne's 31st birthday. Today we can only imagine if she were alive how happy and proud she would of been. That smile, those curly locks and perhaps a little toddler with those same curls lagging behind her dragging a blanket and a favorite stuffed animal. We will never know what might of been.
This evening,once again for the 6th year, we will gather to toast Kelly-Anne and remember her spirit, her perseverance and determination towards competitive life guarding. For many in attendance, they will not have known Kelly-Anne. They will only of known her by her reputation as being a world class athlete. Her legacy continues to live on in those who challenge themselves to the harsh waves and deep waters of our oceans.
For me, the pain doesn't go away. The lump is still my throat. I just get better at masking my true feelings. I put on a smile and forge forward each day remembering what Kelly-Anne would expect me to do. The swimming gets better and each time I flex my arm and see the strength of my muscles, I hear Kelly-Anne in my head with that little chuckle of pleasure and envision that smile of approval on her face.
They say time heals...that's a crock of bull. They should say...time changes things :life and oneself becomes different.
I love you and miss you each day Kelly-Anne.xxxxx
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Video: Sister's Keeper
Here is a video from today's Gazette where Kim speaks openly of the loss of Kelly-Anne. Again, I am in awe of Kim.
Video: Sister's Keeper
Video: Sister's Keeper
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Thoughts about Kelly-Anne
Here we are already in November. They say that November is the month of the dead. I tend to agree with that. Last week I attended a church service remembering the dead and of course prayers for Kelly-Anne were said. November is such a dismal month. The sun is shining today, but that is a rarity.
Last week I had a conference call with the hard working committee members for Kelly-Anne's cocktail. It the same each year at this time. We plan the cocktail fundraiser and work hard at getting donations and selling tickets. I wonder what Kelly-Anne is thinking about all of this. It's weird to be planning her birthday party each year as she is not in attendance. Only her spirit is there. Kelly-Anne's steadfast lifesaving friends will be there too. How proud Kelly-Anne would be to see that her friends who she competed with now have children. Their lives have moved forward and I know that Kelly-Anne as I is happy for that.
Who else, I ask goes thought this each year on their deceased daughter's birthday? Sometimes I feel so different that everyone else...maybe because I am different. I still can't get away from the fact that I walk under a black cloud. I'm labeled.
I will take pride in contributing to honoring Kelly-Anne on her 31st birthday. My family and friends are so supportive and will join me to raise a glass to toast Kelly-Anne. I can only believe that she will be looking down and beaming in admiration over the the many people who work hard to keep her memory alive and at the same time work to insure that lives are saved through the hard work of the Quebec Lifesaving Society.
Last week I had a conference call with the hard working committee members for Kelly-Anne's cocktail. It the same each year at this time. We plan the cocktail fundraiser and work hard at getting donations and selling tickets. I wonder what Kelly-Anne is thinking about all of this. It's weird to be planning her birthday party each year as she is not in attendance. Only her spirit is there. Kelly-Anne's steadfast lifesaving friends will be there too. How proud Kelly-Anne would be to see that her friends who she competed with now have children. Their lives have moved forward and I know that Kelly-Anne as I is happy for that.
Who else, I ask goes thought this each year on their deceased daughter's birthday? Sometimes I feel so different that everyone else...maybe because I am different. I still can't get away from the fact that I walk under a black cloud. I'm labeled.
I will take pride in contributing to honoring Kelly-Anne on her 31st birthday. My family and friends are so supportive and will join me to raise a glass to toast Kelly-Anne. I can only believe that she will be looking down and beaming in admiration over the the many people who work hard to keep her memory alive and at the same time work to insure that lives are saved through the hard work of the Quebec Lifesaving Society.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Cocktail Fundraiser in honor of Kelly-Anne
The Societé de Sauvetage du Québec and the Family of
Kelly-Anne Drummond
cordially invite you to attend the Cocktail Fundraiser in
Memory of Kelly-Anne
On
Sunday, November 28th 2010
At
6:00 p.m.
The Dollard Des Ormeaux Aquatic Center
12001, De La Salaberry
Dollard des Ormeaux
Donation : $50.00 per person
Come and enjoy this annual event as we remember Kelly-Anne on what would have been her 31st birthday. We celebrate her love of life, her accomplishments as a competitive lifeguard and her example of sportsmanship, where she has continued to inspire our lifeguards.
“ Competitive Life guarding is the only sport that saves lives.”
To reserve your tickets, please call 514-252-3100http://www.sauvetage.qc.ca/English/contenu-splash.asp?id=159
Kelly-Anne Drummond
cordially invite you to attend the Cocktail Fundraiser in
Memory of Kelly-Anne
On
Sunday, November 28th 2010
At
6:00 p.m.
The Dollard Des Ormeaux Aquatic Center
12001, De La Salaberry
Dollard des Ormeaux
Donation : $50.00 per person
Come and enjoy this annual event as we remember Kelly-Anne on what would have been her 31st birthday. We celebrate her love of life, her accomplishments as a competitive lifeguard and her example of sportsmanship, where she has continued to inspire our lifeguards.
“ Competitive Life guarding is the only sport that saves lives.”
To reserve your tickets, please call 514-252-3100http://www.sauvetage.qc.ca/English/contenu-splash.asp?id=159
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